Is it normal for a young healthy male to suddenly feel repulsed by sex
Six months back my life was at a low point when I felt empowered by visions of Jesus and converted to Christianity. Now my mind constantly equates sex with sins and my core beliefs are that sex should be for procreation only within marriage. I like my principles but this has drastically altered how my mind views sex - before this, I'd rapidly get turned on my any female so much as giving me a smile. I used to be more confident in approaching women and sex wasn't difficult to score.
Anyway there's a bit of conflict in my mind on this subject. Six months back I was in Amsterdam where I met this hot blonde chick from Denmark. She took me to a hotel room. I did think I was lucky but I wasn't really looking to do anything beyond flirting with her. The girl was rapidly turned on by now and took off her clothes asking me to fuck her. For the first time in my life I felt shy and sinful. I didn't feel like doing it because my Christian beliefs were playing at the back of my mind. I couldn't really get my dick up and the girl started yelling obscenities at me which further eorded my confidence. I didn't even enjoy touching her body. It felt nasty, the girl was patient enough to give me more time to get my dick up. But I just didn't feel like it. The more she started stroking and rubbing me, the more I felt repelled. Finally she threw me out of the apartment in a fit of rage. Incidentally, we're still in touch on whatsapp and she has expressed desire to meet me again.
Recently I went to a massage parlor and had a similar experience. I felt a bit weird when the female masseur was touching my thighs, buttocks and privates. She kept insisting me to hold her hand and was more than ready to give a "happy ending". But I just felt shy again. I felt WRONG.
It may be what I call TOUCH PHOBIA. I seem to be allergic to anyone (male or female) touching my body except in a very friendly handshake. I'm scared of intimacy.