Is it normal for a young girl to compulsively masturbate?
As a young girl, about 4-6 years old, I would compulsively masturbate to very strange things. Not only would I masturbate to strange things, but I could only masturbate to them. [NSFW:/ These things include exhibitionist-like-situations and older men -- always ages 35-40, overweight, and caucasian. For example, I would masturbate in front of my bedroom window so my older, age 40+, neighbor would watch me. I would show my chest to passing men in the back of our family car. When I wasn't doing exhibitionist related things I would be masturbating compulsively to the sexual abuse of myself with men. /:NSFW] Probably 15-20 times a day.
I'm now 18 years old and have tremendous issues with my sexuality. The sexual-abuse-based compulsive masturbation persists and is causing me great distress. I can't even obtain pleasure without thinking of those things happening to me. And pleasure from people I am attracted to in a healthy loving way only result in severe anxiety and tears.
Background information: I was told that it was very likely that I was sexually abused in my early life. (Reasonable suspicion. E.g. getting sexually excited when changing my diaper. Staying too long in the bathroom when bathing me. Watching other people undressing me. Unnecessary contact during these times.) However, since the suspected perpetrator was never /caught/, certainty can't be achieved. Despite the lack of proof, I've always had vague memories of it happening until lately when I have been second guessing myself.
All in all, is it normal for someone /that/ young to be /that/ sexually inappropriate, especially with those kinds of things, without any prior exposure.
P.S. Please try to look at the question objectively without considering that I could have been abused as a young girl.