Is it normal for a happy person to have impulsive suicidal thoughts?

I've never seriously considered killing myself, but one day I thought about doing so impulsively. Completely out of the blue I thought about telling the person I was having a pleasant conversation with to "hold on a moment," and go fetch my handgun. The same thought struck me the next day in the car, alone. It kept happening, everyday! I started keeping track, and that was 3 years ago almost to this day. Everyday for the past 3 years I've contemplated impulsively killing myself with the same gun. I'm a happy guy though! Is this normal?

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51% Normal
Based on 35 votes (18 yes)
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Comments ( 5 )
  • cigs

    you should sale your gun

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  • debbiedoo

    youre obviously not happy about something in your life, whether you know it or not. go to a therapist and i know it sounds crazy, but maybe even a hypnotist.

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  • Anime7

    I don't think it's normal, and I recommend seeing a psychologist. This just doesn't sound like safe behavior because perhaps, one day, you might decide to act on that impulse.

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  • DADNSCAL

    I'd say it's normal to think suicide every now and then, but every day is not. You need to explore where this is coming from, and whether you're really happy.

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  • ZitsOnMyButt

    Morbid fantasies of suicide, murder, or whatever are completely normal. Just don't obsess about them.

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