Is it normal for a girl to fall in love with her best friends mom?
So, I"m an 18 year old women and I have had this best friend named Sara for almost 10 years now. She's the best friend I've ever had and we're extremely close. However, the last few months, I've been dealing with an issue that's made it hard for me to look her in the eye. I've somehow fallen in love with her mom. It's strange because i'm not a lesbian and I've never had feelings for a women before until now. Her mom is 25 years older than me and she's definitely straight. She's so beautiful and I love everything about her from her physical looks to the person she is at her core. I don't know how this happened. I feel guilty every time I fantasize about her mom but I can't stop myself from doing it. I feel so impure and dirty and unworthy when I talk to her mom in person because all these fantasies keep swirling around in my head like a tornado and her mom has no idea. What's even weirder is that I once considered her mom to be like a second mom to me. It's almost borderline incest. I feel like a creep or a pervert. Is this normal for me to have these sexual and romantic feelings for her? I don't know what i'll do if I can't get rid of them.