Is it normal cannibal / chewing human bones fetish
I'm a 24 year old guy and I have a major cannibalism fantasy. Right now all it can be is a fantasy, and it's something I'm not proud of, but I intend to travel outside the US to finally fulfill my desire and get it all off my chest. I don't want to kill or chop up or do any sort of mutilation, I want to just eat, taste, gnaw, on human flesh/remains while having sex or getting myself off.
It's legal to buy and sell human bones. It's pricey but it's legal. So I'm not doing anything bad. I order bones online, usually rib bones or vertebrae, and I chew on them while I get off. Most all bones online are hyper treated, which makes them sorta unenjoyable to chew, unlike those huge greasy bones you get for your dog.
It's a spooky fantasy, I know, it's gross, I know, but I'm just so fascinated with it. I feel like if I can do it once and get it over with it will all go away. But also if I do it once, I'm scared I might get hooked.