Is it normal a few people have made fun of me for being depressed?

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When I was 7, I was diagnosed with depression. I've had clinical depression since then and despite the medications, I never got out of it. I used to have an okay month every few years but that was years ago. Overall, a lot of bad days. I can't help what I experience. I don't want to be depressed, I have studied psychology in school because I thought it would help me understand what I can do to make myself feel better/overcome it but I can't. My Father is a reputable doctor and he has given me all sorts of medications over the years but nothing works.

No matter what, I just don't feel much of anything. I feel really empty and numb and I don't react the same to a funny video or a funny saying. Even when I get things that are really great for my birthday or christmas, I don't feel happy. I just feel empty, still.

People have said some extremely hurtful things like "why don't you just be happy, I don't know what your problem is" to things like "only cowards are depressed. you must be a stupid coward"

Even when I was suicidal, someone said that I was an idiot for thinking that way. They said only selfish people are suicidal. But why am I selfish? I don't know how I am. I have tried to do it before (haven't done anything in a year ) but never felt selfish. I don't know what they mean by that. I just do it because I don't feel anything and I am just dead inside all the time. I don't smile when I'm with family, I don't smile when I'm with friends. I don't talk much, I never laugh. I just am dead so I don't understand how it's selfish and it's been 18 years that I've had this for every day. I don't know how to feel anything. I do want to get better and I just started seeing a different therapist and she seems nice. I try to remain hopeful.

is it normal people say these things?

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    It's normal that people judge mental illness, because it is commonly judged, however that doesn't make it right either. People should not discriminate against mental disorders and should be more tolerant. In fact most people would get diagnosed with some sort of disorder if they were evaluated.

    I notice even here, a place with a high population of people with mental health diagnoses, sometimes are judged. The best way to fix this issue is for people to understand everybody thinks differently and we don't always have to agree on things.

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  • palepunk
    9 years ago

    Unfortunately, there is a stigma associated with mental illnesses. From what I've experienced, the behavior you're talking about is normal, but only because people are so ignorant!

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