Is it love or is it affection?

I've been through that before. My best guy friend and I use to flirt all the time and he would ask me out and tell me he loved me all the time, but I want sure how I felt. In the end, I came to the conclusion that I did love him. However, I only loved him as a friend. I didn't want to hurt him, but I felt like he shouldn't be wasting his time and attention on me. He deserved someone who truly loved him and wanted a future with him. After telling him the truth, my life got super busy and I didn't have time to do anything besides school and my extra curricular activities. Four months passed by and my life finally calmed down, so I jumped at the chance to see him again. He was my best friend and I missed him! When I showed up at his house I saw him with a girl. This made me so jealous and angry. At the time I even knew how stupid it was because 1. I dumped him 2. I don't like him like that and 3. This is what I wanted for him and why I broke up with him, so he could find someone to love him! Unfortunately you can't control how you feel, but you can control how you act on it. I acted friendly and supportive. I gave him my full support (even though he didn't need it) and even became friends with her. I helped them when they had fights and needed advice on how to fix things between them. Him and I were as close as ever. It hurt at first, but I'm actually happy for him. They are a great couple. I realized that I was upset because I felt like he replaced me. I hate change and I didn't want things to be different between us. I wanted him and I to be as close as we use to be and I thought that with her in the picture he would either ignore me or she would tell him to ignore me. Now we are both busy with life and don't talk much anymore.

Sounds more like rose tinted glasses to me ..