Is it ever too late?

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About six this morning I made a call to a veterans crisis hot line. I think I just may have saved my life. I had just come of another bender. Crack, booze, misery. I had been in a suicidal mood. The social worker that I talked to, Debbie, talked me down from that. She is arranging a bed for me at a VA rehab somewhere. I'll get a call from them within the next 24 hours. In that short span of time that I talked to her, she made me see the root of my profound addiction. Been suffering with this for some 35 years. I'm a Vietnam vet so I'm no kid. Been in and out of the rooms for a very long time. This last relapse has been a motherfucker. So here I go back to rehab. This will be my fourth or fifth time. Is this normal? I need help! I need to be somewhere where I can help myself. The VA has good people, like Debbie. I hope any of you fellow sick and suffering out there encounter someone like Debbie. I hope to God that I had my last run. I hope to God that someone who needs help like I do reads this and will see that its never too late.

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  • Short4Words
    8 years ago

    Thanks for spreading some encouragement.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    I don't know if it will help you, but here's how I got through what I had to do to survive that horrendous experience.
    The second my boots hit the ground, I stopped and took a good look around. It was hot, humid and stunk. I made an agreement with myself that I would do whatever it took for me to get home safely. WHATEVER IT TOOK!
    After my year, I went back home and gave almost no thought to that year and haven't given it much more since.
    You survived and whatever you saw or did means nothing because you survived. That was the whole point of your existence from the minute you arrived. That and nothing else.
    YOU HAD EVERY RIGHT TO SURVIVE!

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  • Arm0se
    8 years ago

    It ain't too late until you're dead.

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    Well, it's better than the alternative of course.

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    • itsnotnormal7
      8 years ago

      You pretend to be all Catholic but you are really just a bitch that says nasty violent things.

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  • CrimsonEye
    8 years ago

    Vietnam...veterans back from there have a drug addiction tendency. Perhaps because the war was pointless and you know entering it was a mistake now you could not take. In reference to you advising others and hoping, you have to follow those prayers up with action or it won't last, needless to say.

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