Is it depression?

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I make $17.50/ hr working part time at a company where I literally push 3 buttons every so often. I don't make enough to move out so I'm still stuck at home. Some days I have motivation and feel ready to work on personal projects and hobbies. Other days I feel like I can't get out of bed. On those days, even the most enjoyable hobby of mine seems like a chore. On the days I feel like mental shit, I can't bring myself to brush my teeth or even eat a decent meal. I take my ADHD meds in hope that It will help my brain wake up and start the tasks I need to do but sometimes life feels like it's not worth doing anything.

I have 4 AMAZING trips coming up this year and on the surface, I am super excited about them, but I stress that if I can't get up to brush my teeth or take a shower how have I earned these trips. I feel like this might be depression, but I also want to believe that I am just not happy and need to pull a 180 on my life instead of taking more medication.

should I do something about this?

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noid

4 years ago

You make more money than me and I live on my own albeit in a poor area.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  Im in this golden age period where I dont have to pay for much of anything, don't have any student debt, and am saving so I can move out while working! I’m just frusterated living under the roof of a Type A helicopter mother. Financially I am well off, but my mother controling my life drives me crazy and makes me want to move out soo badly... I dont even get to have a door to my room
  
  It’s the stress of having to be perfect and then being told I will ammount to nothing because im not perfect
  
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  - leggs91200
    
    4 years ago
    
    having someone wanting to control one's life would cause depression.
    
    What you need to do is make it your life focus on getting the hell out of there.
    
    Also, if your job is super boring, maybe branch out or seek other tasks. My job doesn't pay 17 an hour but what I do (handle freight), my time flies by. Time actually ESCAPES cause it moves so fast.
    
    The best jobs for having the work day speed by are jobs where you have to complete tasks in a certain amount of time, like hours. Yeah it is stressful but you are therr and gone in what seems like seconds.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      I feel awful for complaining about getting to play my switch for hours while on the job, but not having any meaningful tasks to complete is driving me crazy... I am trying to move positions within the company but everything is so slow here. As soon as I get confirmed (if I do) for a different position, I will make enough to move out.
      
      Note: my mother does not control every aspect of my life, just dictates how I do it. Her way or the highway.
      
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Kampfheliopfer

4 years ago

I also have some days in some weeks where i feel like giving up life (for basically no reason) but i had this for so long that i'm used to it. It's just how i am now, and from your description it sounds like we have alot in common. I don't have depression, just some days that feel like i have it. From your description i sounds like your just have some days where your unmotivated and that is fine and normal, even when you have these days a little bit more often then others

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DrBoomBox

4 years ago

https://youtu.be/wIZqghmN24U

Listen to this 2 times a day. Let it play in background while you do your work.

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brutus

4 years ago

Sounds like depression, take antidepressants.

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- palehorse
  
  4 years ago
  
  Medication isn't always the best option. Although I don't really know much - I've never had depression.
  
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  - Anonymous Post Author
    
    4 years ago
    
    I made an appointment with my doctor to see what she thinks
    
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    - palehorse
      
      4 years ago
      
      Good luck!
      
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WeirdGuyFromTheSouth

4 years ago

Idk but the best thing to do is brush your teeth everyday before leaving for work. People can smell your breath brother. I guarantee you all your coworkers talk about it. You cant smell it cause youre use to it. I brush mine once a day before leaving for work. My teeth are pretty white.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  I can find the whatever to brush when I have to work... today is a good example, I woke up felt like shit, did a video project for my mother, still felt like shit, then finally brushed my teeth before I left for what will now be the most useless 3 hours of work
  
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  - WeirdGuyFromTheSouth
    
    4 years ago
    
    Are you doing drugs?
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      No
      
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      - WeirdGuyFromTheSouth
        
        4 years ago
        
        You sound normal. I do that too. I notice when im in shape more I have better motivation. Try going for a jog every other day. I know its hard when you're feeling lazy but you can jog stinking. Its not like you have to shower or get ready to jog.
        
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        4 years ago
        
        There are 2 banes of my existance: Trackpad gaming and jogging.
        
        Its not because I dont like exercise, I cant for the life of me figure out how to not get stitches in my side... it’s made running a real drag.
        
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