Is it bad that i hate my family?

Growing up, i hated my family. I never had an actual family that is genuine and cares about me, the only person that i considered my family is my maid. Just because i was occasionally mistreated unfairly, they would yell at me even if i didn't do something wrong for no reason, if they see that i have nothing to do or if im relaxing then they would make me do work that they can just do themselves, and every time someone else is doing something they would make me do it for them, they are constantly criticising and talking shit about me infront of myself,if i do something wrong they would call me a disappointment, they always treated me differently than they do to each other.
i never had a shoulder to cry on, even if i expressed my opinions or how i feel they would laugh or yell at me for feeling so. i am a sophomore in highschool and i've been battling out with suicidal thoughts, i had a rough time last year but i had nobody to cry on, i only told my mom and she just said that i was a mistake. i was always skinny-shamed by my family and im really insecure about it, everytime if i tell them to stop they'll yell at me for being insecure, i'm only in highschool and i cant wait for college

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  • arkbot

    It's normal to be angry at times but def. not normal to have it be persistant. Seek help from extended family or friends, maybe a counselor.

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  • Keepsake

    Talk to a counselor. Your options are either to tolerate it or get foster parents I guess. Record footage of their emotional abuse on you just in case. And if you have difficulty making friends in real life, you can try getting them online; just be careful about it.

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