Is it bad that i hate my family?
Growing up, i hated my family. I never had an actual family that is genuine and cares about me, the only person that i considered my family is my maid. Just because i was occasionally mistreated unfairly, they would yell at me even if i didn't do something wrong for no reason, if they see that i have nothing to do or if im relaxing then they would make me do work that they can just do themselves, and every time someone else is doing something they would make me do it for them, they are constantly criticising and talking shit about me infront of myself,if i do something wrong they would call me a disappointment, they always treated me differently than they do to each other.
i never had a shoulder to cry on, even if i expressed my opinions or how i feel they would laugh or yell at me for feeling so. i am a sophomore in highschool and i've been battling out with suicidal thoughts, i had a rough time last year but i had nobody to cry on, i only told my mom and she just said that i was a mistake. i was always skinny-shamed by my family and im really insecure about it, everytime if i tell them to stop they'll yell at me for being insecure, i'm only in highschool and i cant wait for college