Is his behavior normal?

So ive been dating this guy for 5 years now. Were not officially together since i told him to wait for until i graduate college. We went to high school together and our families know eachother. Hes the epitome of an ideal guy. Hes good to me and he understands me. It took us 3 years before we even got to first base. Hes always been an intense kind of guy so it wasnt really consensual on my part. Altho i didnt exactly spell it out too when i said no. I felt nothing in the kiss. He tried venturing the other bases with me but i couldnt take it. I told him i wasnt ready yet and he understood. But just recently he knew of how i kissed some guy during summer, it was my only kiss that wasnt with him and i loved it. I felt it ya know and i wasnt scared. When he knew, he wasnt mad bec we arent exactly official and i might have given him the idea that i didnt like the kiss but he cried and it was the first time i saw him cry in 5 yrs. He became a bit more aggressive with me. He asked me about how far i am willing to go sexually and i told him the truth, im willing to everything but im not ready yet. He talked me into it, i was expecting just kisses and the next thing i know im on my knees in the bathroom and he wants a bj. I was scared af but i was also guilty over what i did over the summer so i complied. I didnt exactly enjoy the experience. But hes so good to me and i always feel like im so lucky to have a guy like him crazy over me. What should i do?