Intensely jealous relationship

I'm a 25 y/o female and I've been with my boyfriend for six months. We fell deeply, passionately in love with each other very quickly and have been inseparable since we met. We have a very affectionate, playful and loving relationship, and our sex life is incredible - by far the best sex that either of us have ever had. We can't get enough of each other.

The only problem is that we're both fkin psycho jealous! My boyfriend has intense abandonment issues and dreams about me cheating on him or leaving him almost every night - he's cheated before in relationships and has a deep fear that now that he's finally fallen in love for the first time I'm going to cheat on him as some kind of karma and that he'll deserve it.

I, on the other hand, struggle with his past and also his job - he's a personal trainer and a very good looking guy who gets attention wherever he goes. I guess I have some self esteem issues because even though he is always telling me how beautiful I am and how proud he is of me I can't help but feel sometimes like women are looking at us together and wondering why he's with me. Even some of my close friends have tried to have sex with him. It's very difficult for me for him to look the way he does and work closely and physically with female clients on their bodies. He's not vain and he doesn't seek attention from or flirt with other women, but he has told me before that female clients have signed up with him and then quit once they realised there wasn't going to be a sexual relationship involved.

It also bothers me that he has cheated in the past. He has told me that that was because he wasn't committed to those relationships and wasn't in love, which I believe - I don't think that he would cheat on me and it's unfair to judge him on his past but it's still difficult to handle sometimes.

I largely hide these feelings from him because I don't want him to think that I don't trust him - the problem is that it is very stressful for me to experience the level of jealousy and insecurity which I currently am dealing with. Sometimes it makes me want to quit the relationship which is so unfair when he hasn't done anything to make me worry and it's me not him. Does anyone have any advice on coping with these unwanted and unwarranted feelings?

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  • thegypsysailor

    This doesn't sound like a very healthy relationship. Jealousy has nothing at all to do with love. It is more about possessing each other than sharing a life together as friends.
    Without trust, you can never really be anything more than fuck buddies.

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  • CountessDouche

    That's really tough to say, but your relationship sounds unhealthy.

    Everyone is human, everyone, and we all have flaws and insecurities that we being into a relationship. In my experience, your SO is either the type to help you work through whatever problems you may have, and offer you support and balance where you lack it, or they're the type that sort of...idk how to phrase this...enhances your problems because you both feed off of one another.

    I'm worried this might be the latter type of relationship, which is sucky because it might have it's redeeming qualities, but if you are both causing one another more doubt and more anxiety, and his doubts are fueling your doubts...then it might not be the healthiest of situations.

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  • Short4Words

    Maybe honesty is key?

    You both need to know just how much you love one another and that this will never happen.

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  • RoseIsabella

    I'm still happier alone.

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  • Spider-Man

    i had a dream about my ex last night and cried

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  • NegativeGamer444

    yeah, everybody cheats though nowadays because girls are on the phone litterally 24 hours a day with hundreds of guys texting them and flirting on kik messager apps. so soulmates is kind of 90s

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