Inn that i wish i still knew him?

It started in 5th grade and I thought that he was really cute, but everyone thought he was lame and ugly. I kept it a secret until the last week of school. We found out a lot about each other and we became good friends. I told my friends at that point and I asked god to give me a sign that I should go for it, and I got a sign. So I go up to him and I say "we've been pretty good friends and I like you... Will you go out with me?" And he said no. I was fine with that though because I met another guy over the summer. So when back to school came, I was single again, we talked like nothing had changed. I really liked him still, and when the dance came we danced together (not slow dance). I really haven't talked to him in a while, but now, being 18, I still like him. I had gotten trust issues over the years so now I'm scared to go for it. If I had gone for it in 7th grade, would we still be together? I haven't told my friends, I've been keeping this secret for 6 years and I don't want it to be a secret anymore.