In love with my best friend
I recently broke up from a long relationship. Five years ago, during that relationship, I met a really nice girl and we are friends since then. We used to talk almost every day through the internet and she trusted me most of her secrets. We used to go out with common friends, but not that often. Because she was one of my good friends, I trusted her all my secrets and she helped me a lot after I broke up with my girlfriend.
The last couple of months we came closer, we started going out together (most of the times with our friends) and usually after going out with our friends, we spend time together alone, talking about everything that happens in our lives. So now she is my best friend. The thing is I’m pretty sure I have much more feelings for her now. I really think I’m in love with her.
When we are together we don’t act like just friends. We are holding hands, I am kissing her on the chick and I am hugging her all the time. I am telling her how much I love her (as a friend), she is telling me how much she loves me, but I am pretty sure she means “I love you as a friend”.
On one hand she is giving me signs that she wants us to be more than just best friends and on the other hands she is giving me clues that we cannot be anything more than best friends. That’s because she is constantly telling me about all the guys she likes, how other guys are trying to get close to her and all these are making me jealous. One day without me asking or saying anything she mentioned that we cannot be more than friends because we do not match.
We are having a great time when we are together; we even agreed to see each other at least twice a week even though we live in different cities.
I can’t be somewhere between her best friend and her boyfriend. Even though I knew her all these years I just recently understood how much I love her.
So what should I do? Tell her that I like her more than just a friend or continue to be her best friend and enjoy the moments? She is too valuable for me. I don’t want to lose her.