In love with a married woman - should i become a home-wrecker?
This is my story from India and hope someone familiar with conservative Indian values gives a good answer. Although, affairs with married women are quite common in my country, I would really say this one isn't just about sleeping together - it's about true love.
Here's this beautiful female in her late 20's, married for 2 years. The only time I met her husband, who seemed like a decent chap, it brought this feeling that *snatch, no way that bloke deserves to be with someone like her. She seems more of my type: it's just not the looks, we really think alike on so many subjects. Every moment I spend with her seems magical, like I reached some sort of utopia Fairyland. We even seem to communicate by telepathy when we're not having our secret affair. I'm fiercely protective of her reputation as she's of mine so we haven't made it official yet. As of now, I'm heading down a slippery slope and don't know where to stop. Funnily, I have no pangs of conscience which I normally would had it been some other person. I'm just so much in love with her that I don't care about consequences. Only if she decides to reject me, I'll play a Gentleman and stay out of her life. But, since she wants me to hold on to her, my life is becoming miserable everyday. I cannot devote my mind to other women and my regular hobbies, I've started screwing up at my job and smoking more than 10 times a day (it was once or twice per day before). Again, I don't care cause she's worth all the crap I'm going through at present, and even in future. I would gladly never sleep with another woman again if she's what I'm about to land.
All right, I knew it was morally wrong to get in on with a married woman. But, fate just brought us together after we played hide and seek with each other all the time. My guess that she wasn't cut out for her husband happened to be correct. Now, she doesn't exactly love her husband but hasn't entertained the thought of leaving him yet. I don't blame her for that as she has a sensitive soul and probably pities her poor man - she doesn't want to break his heart which I don't have a problem. I'm willing to wait for a final answer. But I damn well know she will NEVER ask me to leave her. We're one soul trapped in two different bodies.
This woman has also been a lucky charm. I feel motivated in life due to her presence. Even her thoughts are powerful enough to fill my jaded heart with positive feelings. Every moment I'm with her, I'm beaming with confidence.
Should I continue being her no strings attached paramour and maybe get a token wife for me too. All right, my heads are totally scrambled now. This is my 11th cigarette of the day. Hope someone gives an understanding answer. It would seem I've already made up my mind but I'm open to constructive suggestions.