Im not religious. then why do i feel guilty for eating non-halal meat?
I tried running a search on this topic but found nothing, instead I found enormous hostility towards Islam and Muslims. I'm aware I'm probably going to get a lot of hatred and venom for this, and that's fine. If out of 20 comments 18 were malicious but 2 were genuinely insightful and helpful, I'd take it.
I'm not religious; I'm agnostic, liberal, and all that jazz. I kind of have my own set of morals and principles. However the one religious thing that's remained constant and embedded in me is that I've always and only eaten halal meat. I moved to Australia 4 years ago and still only ate halal because it was a 17-year old habit. Not easy to just up and break such an old practice like that. The country I grew up in every restaurant had halal meat and making the change suddenly seemed weird. Plus I was mildly religious then (probably 30% to the 0% now). So when I came to Aus, and was at restaurants that didnt serve halal (nearly all of them), I'd eat something vegetarian or seafood. I'd cook halal meat at home.
2 weeks ago I was out with a couple of new acquaintances for lunch and I couldnt be arsed to pick where to eat so I told them I was fine with whatever. They ended up picking a hamburger place. In my mind I thought, "uh oh. you should have made a suggestion. now that place will most definitely not have veg or seafood options." But then I thought, "wait. you're not religious. So what the hell"
We went in and all ordered hamburgers. During the entire wait I was mildly awkward and preoccupied. I ended up eating the burger, which was tasty by anyone's standards. But within the first bite I felt so weird eating it that I had lost my appetite. I downed the whole thing anyway, cause I dislike wasting food. This was the first time ever I ate non-halal meat. Later I felt guilty the entire day and thinking back to that day literally makes me cringe in embarrassment. Funny part is I am accountable to no one! Why the guilt?
So I'm pretty confused now. Clearly it seems I am most comfortable only eating halal meat but being a logical person how can I justify this principle or practice when I'm not religious to begin with? It makes no sense.