Im in love with a 15 year old, i dont want ot be a pedophile...
As i grew up, i would always isolate myself from other children, especially of the opposite gender because of my lack of trust in them. When i hit puberty/teenage hood, i spend all those years thinking about philosophy and fiction. I had the chance to have sex with two girls, one 14, the other 15 (in different times, of course), i was 16 at the time, but i refused because i didn't consider it love, and just instinct and i wanted to wait for love. I am 20 years old now, and not a single woman talks to me or looks out for me, or seeks love from me.
However, this girl that i met when i was 14, who was 9 at the time (15 now) has always been friendly to me, as a friend, however i am finding myself to be (extremely) attracted to her, to her personality, her looks, etc.
However, like i stated, she is 15, and i am 20. And even if there wasn't anything wrong with that, i wouldn't want to ruin her friendship by admitting to her that i love her.
How can i make these feelings stop? I dont want to become a creepy person as i age.