Im a bum who frequently undergoes existential crisis's

I used to the the same but I just pushed through the pain of my daily life and now I am here in moderate life.Fight through the depression the pain is a necessity so you never end up back where you are.

I am comminly reading 1000+ page books and i couldnt even get past half of this. That was just awful just trully awful

You seem "like" a very immature 20 year old. You are doomed to get ripped apart by a bear in the forrest.

I think you should examine your use of the word "like". If something is like something else its "similar to". Go back and read your topic replacing the extraneous use of the word "like" with "similar to" and see just how stupid it sounds.

I mean it sounds similar to you similar to don't know what similar to "like" actually similar to means. See?

You are a cat. Embrace it.

While I was reading through your post all I could picture was a throw back to the 80s valley girl talking. I couldn't get through it with my constant eye rolls.

I'm like guessing you're like some white gurl or something? Like the way you talk is so urhg.

I had that too, when I was around your age (except for the fucking). What helped me was deciding to work towards a goal. I found something I wanted to be, skills I wanted to have, and then worked on that. It wasn't easy and at first I failed. Now I'm still not sure it's gonna work out, but at least I have a goal.
If you don't have goals it's like you're playing a game with no objective. Then it doesen't matter how much neat stuff you have at your disposal, because you don't know what to do with it. So you got to make your own epic quest. The goal is not even that important. It's not about the big treasure at the end of an adventure, it's about going on an adventure in the first place. Even if you die along the way, who cares? You died on an epic adventure, how cool is that?
What do you want to learn? Who would you like to be? When people talk about you in ten years, what should they say? "Oh, isn't she the one who ........"

You're young. You have a shitload of possibilities. Go out and chase one.

What does seqarch mean?

I can relate to this. We are basically the same. . . Except that I don't "like" so many things (maybe spend less time on Facebook?).
Also, I have a job... but it just became another routine thing to me (sleep, wake up, twitter, job, whatsapp, job, eat, shower, sleep).
We are throwing our days away with all this shit. I don't think that I have social anxiety though.. because I cut "social life" out of my routine.. because I get bothered by too many idiot people at work all day long and feel drained after my 11 hour workdays.

I don't need that shit. I just need my safe little hole. And Pokemon Go. And food.

You're into astrology! That's something! Pursue it :)