Is it normal when someone close to you dies you care less?
before my grandpa died last month, there be times i'd get depressed, thinking about things i shouldn't bother thinking on. i wanted so much to get over it completely. because i wasn't always sad, but then, i wasn't always happy either. when my grandpa died, things changed, i no longer think on what i use to think on. i care less about what i do. i'm not ugly towards people, its just i care a lot less than i use to. and i have noticed some of my morals that felt wrong to do, i find it easy, and slowly breaking my own promises i made to myself. and it doesn't bother me.
i am curious if its a normal reaction, and hoping it won't fade. i feel more free. i don't want that to fade away. i don't want to be the guy i use to be that cared more than he should. heh, when i word it like that i sound like i'm broken. ah well, cheers!