Is it normal to wish for someone to be my father

Although I do have a father we are not close at all and I do not like him for reasons I won't go into.
I have wished certain teachers could be father figures to me. I want a mentor who appreciates me unconditionally and can be jealous of people who have a good relationship with their fathers.
I daydream about fictional fathers as well, for instance what they would say to me in a situation where I would like advice but don't have it. Yep, I'm messed up.
I feel like I've missed out and am worried I will always crave the care/attention I didn't receive. What if I never grow up properly and it follows me?

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  • FANTABULOUS

    Dear...I guess you and I are going through the same thing. I also have a father who doesn't like giving advises. If affects me so badly that I just imagine having an advise-giving father. I've also imagined how life would be having my teacher as a father because he's so damn good at giving advises. I think this has turned into an obsession,which I really don't feel comfortable with. I also don't know how to get out of this...some people may just tell you to talk about your feelings to that certain person but it just seems like a very embarrassing thing to do.

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    • I'm very glad I'm not the only one. I think it may be part of the reason I am attracted to older men as well.

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  • ArayaLioness

    I think it's normal to want something that's missing out of your life.

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  • RoseIsabella

    Is it normal that I wish you'd go into details?

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    • About what?

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      • RoseIsabella

        *glances at her fake beard and cigar on the desk*

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  • thegypsysailor

    Get on with your life. You can certainly have a wonderful life without a father or a father figure. You are just creating your own neuroses and fucking yourself up for no benefit. Move on.
    Lots of perfectly healthy people grew up in single parent homes and do just fine in the world.

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  • DarnIT

    Same thing here except its my mother, both of my parents have always been withdrawned they have never been there for me let alone give any good advice, Didnt care much for my father always wanted a mother(still do) but lately i also have been feeling wanting a father figure but it does'nt matter. You're my brother so trust me there is no point in dwelling over this absolutely no point at all these feelings of emptiness will never leave you all they would do is they would break you and you dont want that trust me i have been there. I know its hard movin' on but thats all we can do just move on.

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    • I can't; believe it or not I don't choose to feel this way.

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      • DarnIT

        Never said you did,all im saying you cant live like this.

        TC!

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  • dinz

    My Father and I are not on the best terms. Since my Mother's passing, our relationship has deteriorated to the point where we can't handle being in the same room.

    My Mother (and now my sister) has always played peacemaker trying to smooth things between us but we are just itching to find something to complain about each other.

    I do wish we had a better relationship, I often think "what if" if we could try to make amends. I did find it extremely hard losing my Mother and to not have a functioning relationship with Father has made me realise, we have no option but to put our differences aside and try to make the best of what we got.

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