Is it normal to want to talk to someone i used to love (pls read old post too)

So my former friend/romantic interest (read http://m.isitnormal.com/story/is-it-normal-i-feel-like-i-ruined-his-life-111458/ that I had posted almost 5 years ago) is getting out of jail early. He's still a friend on Facebook and I've sent him multiple messages while sober and drunk telling him how much I missed him and how I wish things would have ended differently over the last 5 years and I think once he reads them its going to get very awkward.. . I've moved on to a certain degree, ended up being with my friend I've known even when he was out of jail (not romantic at first but he moved from Iowa to be with me after I told him all about this guy and how lonely I was) we've had 2 kids in the last 5 years and he's a perfect gentleman and great father, don't get me wrong; I love him and would do anything for him.
But I need a certain closer from my almost lover. I just want to know if he actually liked me or was just stringing me along regardless of how much I loved at the time. I wanna know how he's doing. How he's adjusting outside of jail.
I still love him on a different scale then I did then, I know it was just infatuation with someone who cared about me. I feel like such a monster for not writing him (I couldn't get his address to write and I know he's going to be pissed at me when he gets out).
is it normal that I wanna keep talking to him after he gets out on 1/14/16?