Is it normal to want to be with someone as long as they can?

I've never felt so strong for someone and something real which is why I struggle often with the guy I've been dating. His personality is playful and he lacks communication almost like he doesn't know how to express himself especially intimately but I've grown to accept it. In fact I don't like super gentlemen its kind of a turn off as opposed him, he's just himself and when he is sweet its special. But sometimes these things can get out of hand and hurt my feelings like when he is not being serious about something I'm talking about or something I'm confronting him about. He's take them seriously but in his own joking way so I never know when he doesn't care or he's just playing around. He claims he doesn't realize most things he does wrong according to me and yea it's been emphasized how guys are not mind readers and as girls we have to directly tell them what's going on. But there's some obvious things he should notice but says he doesn't. Regardless though, at the end I struggle, I cry, I stress out but as long as my feelings are still there for him, I'll always stay with him. That's what love does is forgiving and hoping for the best. Like that quote "I rather be fighting w you than be happy w someone else." At the same time, I can't wait til my feelings disappear if they do so I can walk away easily cause right now there's nothing more than I want than to be w him. I'll keep dealing with all this bullshit and one day look back like yup that was tough but were here now happily together cause there's no other way we would have it. As for him, he hasn't let me go its always me who suggests to break it off so I feel like he's also holding on as much as he can.