Is it normal to want the one you love to let you go?

OH KAY so lol I'm in a toughy situation at this moment. I'm talking to my bae/boo, who I love so much to the point where I have let him hurt me, probably my first heartbreak ever, and we are basically trying to get things straight about where we stand; are we an item, friends w benefits, talking, etc. However, its going to be almost a year since we've been involved with each other and I am tired of trying to figure it out day and night. I just graduated from college and this summer is all about getting more experience to land my dream job or at least one of them. I do a lot of research and what I find such as people who are doing what I wanna do gets me so pumped and excited. BUT, I feel like in order for me to fully take every opportunity, I need to let go of my bae :( And he is in the same situation as well. His main priority is work and money which is why we mutually decided to not be in an official relationship. But whatever we are has taken a toll on us like what can we do and not do? Well at least for me. My "dream job" consist of going out a lot, meeting a lot of people, kind of for music mainly hip hop. I do radio right now and want to expand on it. So that industry makes me feel like I cannot have someone behind my work. I mean if he was in that industry too then I don't think it would be a problem but he's not too into it like me. His career path is different from mine. So yeah...basically I am here waiting for his response after asking him what are we and I am actually, secretly hoping he says we should stop so i can be free to do my thing. Why don't I just end it? Cause I'm so indecisive! I fear losing him cause I love him and fear saying "what if we stayed together and made it work?" But then again it can get in my way of pursuing my goals. I am so stuck :/ I know if he says lets stop, I'll probably be relieved the first hour and then it'll hit me and Im gonna get really depressed. If perfect things existed, I would have both him and pursuing my goals like nothing. It would be sweet but unfortunately, life has its obstacles and we need to know when its not worth it. Help? I need some advice...I don't know if this is normal to want your love to let you go. Who can relate? Help me by voting but comments would help a lot :)