Is it normal to think about my weight this much?
I am aware im overweight but i've always thought I was overweight.
I go through periods of acceptance and denial about it.
I check the calorie content of everything I eat and get rather annoyed by products that dont have that information.
Though I eat little what I do eat is usually rather sugary.
I know exactly why I'm big and I want to change it.
But depression gets in the way and I lack all motivation so any weight I loose goes straight back on again.
I am constantly checking myself.
Looking in the mirror, weighing myself and measuring myself.
I remember not eating for a week and feeling so guilty when I started eating again. Like I had failed or cheated.