Is it normal to think about death
I think about it every single day, shooting myself or blowing myself up. What happens after death? Only 1-2% of me believes theres afterlife. If there really is another life there then maybe i should end this one, because its not working out for me. Will it be eternal darkness? What does it feel like when my complicated conscious gets shattered into pieces? Will i feel anything at all? They say your brain still works for few seconds after you shoot yourself in the head. But what if i blow myself up? Ive been depressed for 6 years, is it possible i was never meant to be here?