Is it normal to tell my parents that i'm gay so they'll stop bothering me?
my parents are concerned that I am almost 30, a virgin, and never had a girlfriend or anything like that, in fact I don't even have any "real" friends except some people I know from online forums and other websites. I am very much a loner and antisocial and have gone down this path too long to ever change myself. I'm very horny most of the time but my family thinks I'm asexual. In fact every night I either watch porn or even videos with girls talking about random stuff just to feel like I have a girlfriend. It's gotten to the point that I have begun to doubt myself and my self-esteem and confidence has gone down that I feel like I don't deserve any girl, and that she can always do better, and that no girl would ever settle for me, a horny desperate loser with no life. And because I don't feel like I am good enough or deserving of any girl's love, I don't get turned on by normal consensual sex anymore. I feel like I have to pay a girl or give her some sort of present or reward to prove that I am worthy of being with her and having sex with her. But then I remember that I am ugly and worthless anyway and so I like to think that if I double the money offer, I might be able to get her to kick me in the balls instead of having to look at my hideous face, crotch, or disgusting body.