Is it normal to sort of love misery

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So I have this thing that happens occasionally. I'm in university and I'm relatively happy. However, these days I've been feeling really lonely with the group of friends I'm with. I feel like we never relate and at the worst times, there's this sharp feeling of emotion that hits my chest and I find my eyes tearing up whenever they're talking among themselves. That moment, that single moment, usually is the weirdest kind of bittersweet I have ever experienced. I relish the loneliness in a way I can't explain, but while also feeling absolutely miserable for it. Some problems at home now make me feel even more enstranged from my friends, so I just know that it'll definitely get worse. So can anyone else relate to this? Feeling sad but enjoying it somehow?

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  • yfhudsk
    7 years ago

    It's not normal in general but it's normal to me. I kinda love the self deprecating nature of suffering and being alone. There is a masochistic pleasure to be taken in one's own failure. However, this is not healthy. This is not healthy in the slightest. I had carried on like this for years and one day I found myself in a psych ward. I allowed it to go to far and I wound up screwing up my life to the point where I would do it unconsciously. I ended up trying to down a bottle of pills to solve my problems. Please, stop and seek help while you still have time. It's a gradual process and you won't even notice the hole you're digging for yourself.

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