Is it normal to put anesthetic cream in my vagina?
-warning, vagina talk ahead, if that grosses you out, or these types of details are "weird" to you, plz stop reading-
a little background:
So, I'm a virgin. I'm pretty sure I have vaginismus, which is involuntary vaginal muscle contracting when attempting penetration. I know this because before my first potential partner, I've never had anything inside me before. And even after they fingered me more than once, it was still as painful. It took me a year or so to finally insert a tampon and it wasn't painful after I did. just taking it out was excruciating, so I haven't used one since (4 years ago.) I was asked why I haven't had anything inside me before, and the answer was I just couldn't. It may be a result of my sexual abuse as a child-early adolescent, or genetics, but i dont know. I attempted to lose my virginity yesterday, but it was so fucking painful, and it was barely in. Luckily the person I'm with is understandable, bless them for tolerating my sexual trauma, jesus christ. Anyways, because it's extremely painful to the point where I don't think I'll ever adjust to it, (and i have a high pain tolerance) I considered using a topical anesthetic before trying sex again. Would this work?