Is it normal to not have any idea how the female brain works?

So I'm in 11th grade and the girl of my dreams asked me to "May Day" which is a pagan holiday. She is in my youth group and she recently asked one of my best friends to prom who is almost 1.5yrs younger than her and hardworking, but immature. I was asked to May Day after he was asked to prom, and she is good friends with hin, and i would take it to the extend they are basically dating. So me and her are kind of friends. She is very sweet and outgoing, but like all girls, complicated. May Day is generally nothing special, but for me it is very special b/c I secretly like her, but I have built walls around myself through high school b/c of all the retarded kids who like to beat their chests and cut me and others down, so as a result, i CANT vent emotions very well at all and dont know how to even talk to her. My dad has taught me to be humble, but I am no where close to the perfect dream guy. She bears all of the fruits of the spirit but i'm almost opposite as I am kind of a hermit, and I only get along with certain people. Tech pisses me off with all this snapchat crap and twitter gossip. High school sucks. So at "May Day," we dance and such, and I know it doesnt mean much. Im the starting offensive right guard at my school, so I have a life. That is just a little I have to say, i dont want to bore everybody with my life.
And dont tell me what I should do b/c everyone is different and I may not see it the same as you. Honestly I dont think Im worth her, but life goes on...I will let God and life decide the outcome, and i need to stop worrying about stuff like this.
My thoughts were jumbled but forgive me, I write to much in AP English and i dont really care about formality right now

The verdict: Can some ladies enlighten me on how you think?