Is it normal to not feel anything about planning a suicide?

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Over the last 2 years I've been planning my suicide. Now, I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder so I've made sure to write down my thoughts as to why I feel this way when I'm in both states of mind and they're both pretty much the same thing: I'm just tired of everything.
However, I've come to the realization that I have no fear or sadness attached to my death. I've accepted it as something I'll do and that'll be that. I haven't felt any regret over my decision even though I have my death planned for the end of this year, nor have I felt like I should avoid it. I understand the damage it'll cause my family, but they've never really been there so it wont take long for them to forget.
Though I say this, I admit that I also don't feel any happiness about my upcoming death. I don't feel anything at all.

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  • youwillgotohell
    6 years ago

    It seem to me like you are already dead, hence there is no point in even planing or committing suicide. You reached your destination without you even realizing it.

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  • NashamaTheWeird
    6 years ago

    Please don't kill youself. Get help instead. It may take a while but with therapy and proper medications you will be able to see that life is worth living. Also, while it's normal to feel like people don't care about you when you are depressed, please realize that this is not true. Your family loves you and would be very upset if you hurt yourself. Please get psychological help, there are better things ahead!

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