Is it normal to not be able to communicate with your father?

Hey, my name is Eli. I'm a seventeen year old transguy (but that's not important since I'm still in the closet). Last year was hell, I suffer from clinical depression and I almost killed myself. I wasn't mentally right and that really. really, really damaged my relationship(s) with my family. I've been able to rekindle my relationships with everyone in my family but my father. I mean, my father and I have a decent relationship. I mean, I love my father but when it comes to seriously talking about things in my personal life, I just can't do it right and we end up fighting. Recently, we had a small fight over a situation involving my sister and her iPhone (we used to share but then I was given a flip-phone). He is very sensitive about my sister or I even implying that there's any type of favoritism, and he flipped out on me because I mentioned that I felt like second fiddle to my sister because she has both a mac laptop and, now, an iPhone. I just feel like in some areas I'm second-class to my sister, I don't even think of it as favoritism. Long story short: We had an argument, he said that he'd take my sister's iPhone (and my flip-phone) away. I don't want anyones phone taken away. I just want him to listen. I know I have zero ability to express my emotions and I'm socially awkward, but why can I talk perfectly fine to my mom and my friends but not to my dad? I don't want conflict in my family. Any advice? How do I explain my feelings to him without making things worse?

((P.S.: When I was going through a lot last year my father took away all my electronics because he's a religious leader and believed I had allowed "evil spirits" into my "heart" from browsing certain sites. I'm an atheist))

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  • chained_rage

    I have come to realise that if a person starts off a post by introducing themselves and sharing insignificant information, that the post is probably shit and I just don't read it.

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    • Crazyperson2

      I see it as background. I always put it in mine too.

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  • thegypsysailor

    Sometimes I too feel like a second class citizen because others have all the fancy geegaws I would like to have. But you know what? If I really wanted them that bad, I could get a job and buy them for myself.
    Perhaps your dad just doesn't want to hear it, because maybe his little girl IS his favorite and he feels guilty. Deal with it and realize that life is just like that. You've probably got another 60 or 70 years of inequality in front of you and buddy, you've just got to be happy with a flip phone, rather than no phone at all.

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    • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk

      geegaws?

      fucks sake boy, im rubbin off on yall

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