Is it normal to not be able to communicate with your father?
Hey, my name is Eli. I'm a seventeen year old transguy (but that's not important since I'm still in the closet). Last year was hell, I suffer from clinical depression and I almost killed myself. I wasn't mentally right and that really. really, really damaged my relationship(s) with my family. I've been able to rekindle my relationships with everyone in my family but my father. I mean, my father and I have a decent relationship. I mean, I love my father but when it comes to seriously talking about things in my personal life, I just can't do it right and we end up fighting. Recently, we had a small fight over a situation involving my sister and her iPhone (we used to share but then I was given a flip-phone). He is very sensitive about my sister or I even implying that there's any type of favoritism, and he flipped out on me because I mentioned that I felt like second fiddle to my sister because she has both a mac laptop and, now, an iPhone. I just feel like in some areas I'm second-class to my sister, I don't even think of it as favoritism. Long story short: We had an argument, he said that he'd take my sister's iPhone (and my flip-phone) away. I don't want anyones phone taken away. I just want him to listen. I know I have zero ability to express my emotions and I'm socially awkward, but why can I talk perfectly fine to my mom and my friends but not to my dad? I don't want conflict in my family. Any advice? How do I explain my feelings to him without making things worse?
((P.S.: When I was going through a lot last year my father took away all my electronics because he's a religious leader and believed I had allowed "evil spirits" into my "heart" from browsing certain sites. I'm an atheist))