Is it normal to masturbate in a school classroom?

So this isn't current, but would help validate my experiences growing up. So, imagine this is my 12-16 year old self asking this question.

It started off watching other boys in 7th grade playing with themselves under their desks. Pocket pool, grabbing themselves. There wasn't many, maybe only 3-4 guys in my grade who played with themselves in class.

I'm gay, and that totally caught my attention and turned me on. Around the same time I learned to masturbate on my own.

One day, I saw one of the kids who played pocket pool, I was checking out his bulge and noticed a glistening stain on his pants. He gave me a stare, but I knew what he did, and I suddenly felt like I wanted to blow my load in class as well.
And for better or worse, I began doing that - and looking back, there was even a time when I secretly wanted to get caught or seen with a cumstain on my pants. It's weird, maybe I emotionally absorbed that other kid's shame or something when I saw his own cumstain and I want to act it out on others??
One day, I was bold enough to actually whip it out under my desk, that was risky, but I did it.

I kind of got addicted to it, because I got away with it, but I stopped one day when I heard a lot of kids laughing about me. Other than whipping it out that one time (and one time on the bus) I usually just rubbed myself on the outside of my pants until I came.

Like, I was totally a sex obsessed teenager for a variety of reasons... I would get myself off even next to my best friend, fantasizing about him right next to him.
In one sense, I think I kept doing these things because I didn't think it was wrong; then also no one said anything, so I assumed it must be okay; and my urge to get off and instantly gratify myself was insatiable.

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Comments ( 10 )
  • donkeykong716

    at what point does masturbation become abuse?

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    • McBean

      It never does. This figure of speech was originally intended to create fear, anxiety, and negative feelings in kids 150 years ago to persuade them to adopt Puritan values. Sexual alienation was the only result.

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    • RoseIsabella

      Self abuse is really just a figure of speech.

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  • verystrangefellow

    I did this around that age and didn't think anyone noticed, until a friend told me about the rumor many, many years later. It still haunts me that someone saw what I was doing.

    Arms inside jacket, check. Jacket overlapping lap, check. I thought nobody would notice just a bit of rubbing.

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    • RoseIsabella

      That's what you get for doing stuff you aren't supposed to do. You got off easy.

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      • LornaMae

        Didn't seem *that* easy to get off with that jacket issue thing in the way... hehehehe!

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        • RoseIsabella

          😂

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  • cvltcvnt

    you're alright. girls did it too, i remember edging myself on the edge of a chair in 5th grade. saw one other girl that did it regularly. Its not socially acceptable, but I didn't know what i was doing, all I know is that it felt good. you were a kid, and its over now. frankly, it's an adults' responsibility, if they spot that behavior, to take the kid aside and patiently explain to them that it's something you do in private.

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  • Nickleangel

    I did it once too, I didn't cum though. Also, I didn't know at the moment but people noticed and said nothing. That was until a few days later, a female teacher came up to me while playing football and started screaming to me to never sexually harrass a woman again, without even explaining herself, I didn't even know what she was talking about, and everyone was so akward no one commented on it, ever. Like that's they way to tell a 9 year old kid that sexual behaviour should be kept for privacy. You shouldn't have done it but you were a kid, you didn't understand fully what you were doing. Besides, the past is the past, there's no reason to feel bad about it.

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  • RoseIsabella

    No, it's messed up to abuse yourself in class.

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