Is it normal to make myself look ugly on purpose when i humiliated myself

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Hello. I am not trying to praise my own appearance but many people told me before including some random strangers that I am an attractive young man which I am embarrassed about.

I've low self-esteem and clumsy so I tend to mess things up & ended up humiliating myself most of the time when I've to do some stuff with other people.

Whenever I humiliated myself, I would make my face look ugly on purpose like making an ugly hairstyle and intentionally make my face looks punchable to other people. This actually makes me feel better.

Since many people called me attractive, I always thought I am undeserved to have a good-looking appearance when I always humiliated myself like a total loser out of clumsiness & low self-esteem. Is it normal to do this?

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  • sissycakes
    5 years ago

    i am like this. compliments make me so nervous, and i think this person is going to think i am doing this or that just to get another compliment which makes things totally embarrassing. i am ugly, but other things cause me to shoot myself in the foot. i could barely stand in high school or walk i was so nervous.

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  • panter411
    5 years ago

    Life is much like a table top rpg, you roll the dice and have to make the outcome work, you got a nice face but is clumsy, better than a ugly face and clumsy.

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  • Appareson
    5 years ago

    So if you make a bad joke, you will gouge out your eyeballs?

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  • RoseIsabella
    5 years ago

    I think you suffer from some pretty extreme self loathing, and should seek out some professional help.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      You're right about the self-loathing stuff. I always do stuff wrong most of the time when working with people. I feel very worthless because of this hence I thought how undeserve of me to have a good-looking face(based on people's opinions of course) which only cool people deserve to have.

      I already seek professional help several times before but only be able to stay positive for a short while.

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      • RoseIsabella
        5 years ago

        What you need is to stop beating yourself up, accept that God loves you and please learn to love yourself.

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  • TomatoJuice
    5 years ago

    When I was little I was ugly and very overweight now that I m older people tell me I gorgeous and now I m a bit heavy but I do have a lot of curves. People tell me I have Kim Kardashian body with dua lipa face. But I m not used to all the attention so I dress in oversize outfits, and basically, I look like a homeless person.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      I can somehow understand how you feel so your story don't really weirded me out. I wish it's easy to accept ourselves for who we really are.

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