Is it normal to love my wife after she cheated on me

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My wife has a whole list of mental disorders that inhibit her judgement but lately her actions have destroyed me. She recently manipulated me into watching her have sex with my best friend (no longer) then had an affair with his friend for 4 days. I found out about that then became traumatized. Didnt leave my room for a month but afterwards while i was expressing my hurt and love i found out that she was making false rape claims to the police in an attempt to blackmail me for $220 then called it off. luckily my mother was renting to me because she walked in on me attempting suicide and took me to the hospital. While i was there my wife hooked up with yet another guy. I found out when i got out and tried to talk her into getting back with me because in this man i saw danger and knew he would cause her harm. During the time she was with him she kept telling me she loved me but only hours after screwing that guy. She left him and he immediately threatened to kill me and he started posting shit like im a pedophile which is absolutely disgusting. I had already ordered a few self defense tools because i had predicted that somethjng like this would happen and was prepared to kill him if given the chance however he never came. Im now back with my wife and she is being loving and supportive and acting like nothing happened. She says she loves me and doesnt even want to talk about anything. I had quit my job because of serious depression and fear of everyone around me i have horrible gruesome nightmares after what she did to me and every time i try to convince myself to leave her i end up cutting and going insane and nearly attempt suicide. I cant leave i cant stay im depressed and i always want to die. It feels like that is the only way to be free of this pain. Time just makes it worse and i am done suffering. I feel trapped and dead inside. Is it normal to still love someone who did that to you and is it possible she really does love me? Should i stay or leave should i live only to suffer more or die and be at peace? My entire life has been filled with nothing but abuse and loneliness. Is it normal to feel this way. What should i do. Will things really get better or not?

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  • Rictictavie
    5 years ago

    Normally don't read posts this long but damn dude. My recommendation is to live and move on. Even if you both still love each other trust has been betrayed (to put it mildly) and you need to get out.

    Many people close to me have killed themselves. Though they are no longer in pain they are gone forever. If you kill yourself you will no longer experience the joys of life that you have long forgotten. Take it slowly. Start by finding a safe place to go once you break up and go from there.

    It is so difficult to give good advice when I cannot personally feel the pain that you are going through. It will be even more difficult for you to move on but it can be done. I'll be rooting for you.

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    • Kraizenn98
      5 years ago

      Thank you. Shes moving to idaho soon and for the time being im staying with family until i get all set up with medications and counseling. Thank you all for the support. Im trying my best to move on

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  • RoseIsabella
    5 years ago

    I think you should leave that piece of shit wife of yours immediately, and then seek out some serious psychiatric care for yourself.

    My love is like a light switch, and cheating on me is like having the electricity turned off for good. I don't care what awful things happen to people who betray me. I personally think it's very sad that you still love that awful woman to whom you are married. Cheaters don't deserve love, they only deserve the worst things life has to offer.

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  • cipro
    5 years ago

    Leave her obviously. Take medications and attend therapy for ur depression and suicidal ideation.

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  • lordofopinions
    5 years ago

    I agree. She sounds super toxic. DUMP her and move on but it sounds like you already did.

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  • noela
    5 years ago

    Love can be blind....

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