Is it normal to live like this?
My lifestyle has never been consistent. I’ve been diagnosed with depression since I was 13 and now im 18. My mom suffers from multiple health issues and now she’s mostly bed ridden. It’s only me and her living together but my mom can do basic tasks to help herself. I know that i need to help take care of her but i have no clue how, i can barely take care of myself. my room is usually a mess and there’s even feces around our trailer from the cats and dogs. my mom has her part of the trailer which is the living room that we converted into a room and part of the kitchen, but she has it closed off from the rest of the trailer. we have four cats and three dogs that stay in the room in between my room and my moms. i didn’t have a door for a long time so it was hard to keep the cats out of my room (not so much my dogs because they live in kennels stacked up on each other in the middle room they’re three chihuahuas). Our animals are always fed but they’re still skinny. The cats hate each other. I try to spend as much time with them when Im feeling up to it. I feel so lazy and maybe that’s what it is. I’m enrolled in school but I have gone maybe six times in the past two months but i work on the weekends. i want to start changing my life but i don’t know how or where to start. i’ve watched my mom stay in bed for so long that i’ve taken that on too. sometimes i hate getting out of bed. i feel so much guilt for my animals and my mom. i know they all deserve better. the thing is though that i didn’t ask for all of these animals. my mom would see an animal that she wanted so we would get it, but i was the one left to take care of them. all of my clothes are covered in hair and they smell, my bed sheets are also covered in hair and i wash them maybe once a month. i have laundry piled for days. i have noooo clue how to get my life together and how to stop being a pos