Is it normal to literally blank out?

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I know I have a problem (s) and I'm discovering more as I strive to be a better me. I know I have social anxiety for sure, I know I have a mental disorder possibly retardation, and depression. Going back to the mental, it has haunted me and as I get older it's getting more frustrating because besides that I'm normal and healthy. I just lack smarts and intellectuality and I hate it. What makes me upset is that I am knowledgeable about things but I don't know how to explain it to others. Then recently, I thought more deeply and noticed it's usually when I'm caught off guard I tend to have brain farts. Like something so simple or something I know I'm knowledgeable about I suddenly blank out on and of course it makes me look dumb as hell which makes me mad and depressed. It's overall not a good situation or feeling. If someone were to just ask me "what is so and so" or "how does so and so work?" I blank out. If they said "let me know tomorrow" I'll be able to explain it to them but if they ask me something else after that I was prepared for, it's downhill from there. I'm figuring out that life is basically a huge improv class. Growing up, I barely socialized either by choice or I was isolated. Now I'm doing my best to get out there and talk to others not only for my health but cause I want to. So that's why I'm barely learning how socializing works and as I said it's all improv which isn't good for my mental blackouts. I know o carry myself well a lot of people approach me and like me until they learn I'm "slow" or not bright. Is it normal to blank out like this to this extent? Or am I just dumb and need to read books or something? I'm hoping it's normal meaning it is a disorder so I don't have to worry too much that it's fixable because at this rate I don't feel like it's fixable.

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  • riffraffy
    7 years ago

    You're sabotaging yourself. Your ego is huge and you need to kill it. When you do, all those pressures you've imagined will dissappear.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      No I def don't think its an ego thing...I wish it was but don't think thats the case. Like I just literally blank out when I'm put on the spot and it's humiliating. I understand why you might think I have a bog ego like chill out I don't know everything but Im seriously talking about simple, easy things that if you were to ask me out of nowhere, I wouldn't know the answer and you'd probably look at me like I have a mental problem or in society's terms, dumb or airhead-ish. I hate putting attention on myself. I don't want people to notice me unless its for a good reason and even then, I feel shy if Im getting noticed in a good way. So its not ego. As I said, I wish that was the problem so I can kill it but its not. Its another problem...

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      • mia500
        6 years ago

        you're focusing on your anxiety instead of what's in front of you. change your thoughts everyday and go easier on yourself then things will come more naturally. really put yourself in the moment when face to face with someone

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      • riffraffy
        7 years ago

        Thats not the 'ego' I was talking about. The ego I'm referring to is the source of all your anxiety when speaking in public, all the fear about what others think about you. It's what makes you ridiculously oversensitive about yourself.

        You need to research and destroy this.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          7 years ago

          I don't know, maybe. But I have considered that about thinking I'm the center of attention and everyone's looking at me. So I have tried to mentally blend it with the rest and it has been working gradually but it's when I'm put on blast. Plus this does happen when everyone is staring at someone and that person is prob questioning whether people are paying attention to them or not when the truth is yes they are. I think the only people who can relate to this are the ones who have been bullied in some way or outcasted and know they have issues.

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