Is it normal to like a guy, want a guy, then when i have him, feel turned off?
Every time I'm into a guy, I really want him both sexually and emotionally. But when I actually have him, the thought of actually being sexual with him disturbs the hell out of me. I know it sounds immature, but there's something about his junk that is really off putting. It's the same when I think about him going down on me, what if he thinks it's disgusting down below? I feel like I could never be serious when doing it because I feel either embarrassed or disturbed, or that he will judge me. It’s not as like I haven’t been sexual with a guy before, just within the last few years every time I get close to a guy emotionally, I never pursue it because I can’t imagine doing it with them.