Is it normal to have this kind of sexual relationship with my bf??
When we first met, my boyfriend and i were mad for eachother. Emotionally, we both still are. Physically, only he is.
To me, our sex life SUCKS now.
Before, we could make out, have sweaty, trembling, passionate sex..
Now.. it just seems too forced.
I was never a sex EVERYDAY, 3 times a day type of person. Even when i had sexual addictions as a teen and couldnt control my urges without physical therapy.
Sometimes i wonder if i've outgrown sex or something..
Like my bf wants sex first thing in the morning, and just before bed at night, EVERYDAY AND EVERY NIGHT. When i say first thing i mean he'd wake up, rub his bulge against me, pull my pants down.. maybe squeeze a boob until i was slightly awake, and then spit in his hand and hope i got into it.. which i would move to help him achieve his orgasm but only to get him off me. The sex was usually painful as spit isnt a lubricant.. i wasnt ready and i was barely conscience..
When we'd do it during the day.. theres never foreplay. Hed jus rub himself against me, stuff his scraggly stubble against my neck (i hate being tickled, even by accident) and try to pull my pants off. or jus whhip it out and ask for head ..
he complains that i dont show him affection now. but i hate kissing him when it always just turns sexual. it can never just be kissing.
Even when i was pregnant.. during the early months, sex was fine sometimes tho my sex drive was super low so it was always like "cant u jus look at porn? are you almost done?". but around my 5th month, it started to feel uncomftable. Enough that i just couldnt enjoy the sex even wen i wanted it.
He'd beg and beg and id give in anyway and jus bite my tongue til he finished, smile and pretend to have enjoyed it.. But at 8 and 9 months pregnant.. he'd STILL beg for sex and by then it was jus down right painful. And i was too tired most of the time to fake it. And my back hurt too much to even stand sometimes.. Tho to avoid his attitude towards me, id still let him sometimes.. but most times i didnt. So hed get pissy and hog all the covers at night, even if it was super cold and the other blankets were still wet in the wash.
Someone told him that pregnant sex was supposed to be the best sex ever and so hed beg me for it everyday. to the point where id be like crying, like can we go ONE day without you putting your d**k in my face, begging for sex or head or hj .. and its like im worst person in the world becus i dont satisfy him at 8 months pregnant. i cudnt even wear my maternity bras becus they showed too much boob and didnt hide my nipple imprints and i was being a tease if i didnt wear a big floppy tshirt (i hate tees, i cant stand short sleeve shirts and neck hugging collars).
At the time i was a stay at home mom too so hed use that "but i work and u dont, i worked all day, whatd u do? why are u tired when uve been home all day? so cleaning after me and our daughter's the hardest thing ever, you cant give me 5 minutes of sex?" Meanwhile he'd only acknowldge my ever moving baby bump once a month for literally 5 minutes before goin straight from belly to boobie..
I feel like a blowup doll most of the time. Like im supposed to just automatically get turned on when he's in the mood, and be ok with using SPIT if it takes more than 60 seconds to become aroused..
is this how normal relationships are after 5 years?