Is it normal to have this fantasy?
I am a lonely researcher in a laboratory. Sometimes I fantasize about a young beautiful college girl working with me as a laboratory assistant. We would bond over spending long hours in the laboratory together and I would get the privilege of knowing about her personality and interests. I would do anything to make her feel comfortable. I would try making her laugh and impress her with my knowledge and good heart. Then one day near Christmas there would be a holiday party and she would get all dressed up. Her hair that was normally in a bun would be down and I'd be able to see her lovely long naturally curly hair, she would not be wearing glasses and I would be able to see her amazing eyes, she would have on makeup that she usually didn't, and instead of a boring lab coat she would be wearing a beautiful blue dress that emphasized her feminine curves. And the best part would be, she would know who I was, finally a beautiful woman would acknowledge my existence, and be warm and friendly with me. All this time she was hiding her beauty but now that I had the opportunity to know her intimately she would be radiant with awesome qualities and shine brightly both inside and out.