Is it normal to have these thoughts?

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When I'm angry at someone I hate them with a passion. Even if it's someone I should love. I will have intrusive thoughts of killing them in horrible ways. Later they wear off and I wonder why I felt that way. I wish I didn't have these thoughts as they do not seem healthy but I have no control over my thoughts and regularly think of killing. I am sometimes afraid I will someday lose control of my physical actions if my thoughts take over and end up in jail. I am only asking because I seriously want help with this issue because I desire healthy relationships with others.

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Based on 9 votes (6 yes)
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  • SeekNPlay
    5 years ago

    I too get thoughts of Killing when I do even think of Killing family members and or friends/ random people. I think I am a psychopath or some shit. We are similar and I am Interested in talking with you.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      I'll talk here. I have questioned if I may have mild psychopathic traits but I do have what seems to be a conscience and empathy for people I choose to like. I took the PCL before and seem to score in the 20's, so not quite a psychopath, but most people score about 5 which is odd to me as I seem to have better morals than the general population. I brought up some of my darker thoughts to the therapist recently. In a way they bother me, but not because I find them emotionally distressing, but because I don't think it's a healthy thing to be preoccupied with thinking about and interferes with focusing on better stuff, so I actually want these desires to go away. I find them bothersome more in a way not having a cigarette can be because it's not something I actually want to do with my life. I brought up to a therapist about a time I saw a man get murdered outside a club years ago and they assumed I must have ptsd causing these thoughts, but that isn't the case as I was like this before and seeing it in real life only made me fixate on it more than I did before.

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      • SeekNPlay
        5 years ago

        Hmm, I have never been to a therapist but I've been recommended. I have psychopathic and sociopathic traits as well. As far as the intrusive thoughts I thi k they occur when you are in the heat of the moment. I know when I'm raged I want to annihilate whoever made me angry. The feelings e entually subside, and I come to terms with myself as to why and how I can think to do something like that. When you talked to your therapist about you thoughts how did they react? And did they consider you a threat?

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  • YamaMayaNyaa
    5 years ago

    Sounds like OCD. Seek the help of a therapist or doctor

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    • SeekNPlay
      5 years ago

      OCD?

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  • sh1tter
    6 years ago

    take a chill pill

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      I quit taking those.

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  • RoseIsabella
    6 years ago

    Get some psychiatric help.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      6 years ago

      This is the same person who wrote the other post about the roommate who idolized Manson. You know who I am but I dont want to openly admit these things. I've been in councilling for a long time now. They don't really help me and send me to the hospital any time I am open about how I really think. I badly want help but don't know how so I discuss it anonomously on forums like this. I'm coming to realize my mind has been fucked and there seems to be no actual treatment. Therapy has made me worse because they betray me.

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      • YamaMayaNyaa
        5 years ago

        Intrusive thoughts is a symptom of OCD. The thoughts are distressing and while it may seem like your own thoughts you have little control over them. There is help out there you just need to know where to find it.

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