Is it normal to have suicidal thoughts even though i dont want to kill myself?

It's a damn good thing you're too scared to do it, too. That's one of your strongest primal instincts protecting your body from your mind.

You're 20 years old. You haven't lived long enough to earn the right to say life isn't worth it. It is COMPLETELY normal to feel this way, however! Everybody goes through really shit times. Everybody feels like giving up at times. The thing is... at 20, it feels like whatever your problems are right now - are the hugest things in the universe. When you've given yourself the honor of living a few more years, those issues will seem so unbelievably insignificant it'll blow your mind. I'm not saying they're not important right now - but they won't last.

There will be so many good amazing things to come. There will also be things so awful they'll feel 10 times worse than what you're going through now. That's life. It's rich, it's varied, it's ever-changing, and believe me it IS worth it.

When I was 8 I couldn't eat as much candy and play as many video games as I wanted. I told my mom I wished she would die because of it. When I was 15, I was unpopular and had a genetic condition that caused almost everyone at school to ostracize me, I wanted to die. When I was 19 I started the most amazing relationship of my life, but when it ended... again, I thought death would be better. When I was 22 I told my family something that caused a lot of them to stop talking to me altogether. When I was 27, two men raped me and left me bleeding in an alley. I wished for death.

But I never went through with it. We all FEEL like that at times, but life IS worth it. If I tried to list the utterly amazing things I've experienced inbetween those awful ones, my post would take up 100 pages. You'll experience them, too.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

What is your occupation? I have these thoughts almost every day, but when I think about it, I don't really want my life to end I just want to be better at it and can't find the strength to try. These thoughts usually come up when I think about the past, all the time I have wasted and all the things I regret doing or not doing. The toughest part is trying to find something you may be interested in.

It's easier said than done, but the best thing to do is cheer up and make yourself happy, it really is quite worth it once you get the nack of it and begin to enjoy being alive again.

I have suicidal thoughts too, but sometimes I really want to act on them. But when I comes down to it I'm too scared to step into The unknown & and of the pain, but I'm already in pain....

It's normal, but please don't act on it.

Your NOT ugly Your NOT useless ... You belong on this earth clean your self up go have a drink or treat your self and try to visit people get some friends it will be okay! I have this feeling all the time too.. That I'm worthless ugly and no one needs me but sometimes you realize you are needed in the world -god is here always

Im the exact same but what keeps me from doing it is holding on to a little bit of hope that my life will change one day if i just wait.

I have a very similar "problem"... I have been thinking my life has been a waste of time since I was 15 and I am 19 years old now.
And I think the same about what you said " I fantasize about what my few friends, my family and my crush would go through if I would actually do it", completly the same so do not you think you are alone in this

When you're depressed you don't exactly think rationally all of the time.

Try to focus on things you can change. You don't want to wake up 10 years later and be saying the exact same thing.

You apparently do not understand what suicide means. To kill ones self. If you have thoughts of killing yourself you want to kill yourself. Its just that simple.

There is a single thought that can get you through this, and that is that your life in the future could be drastically different then it is now. The problem is actually believing that thought because I'm sure right now these problems seem like they will never resolve themselves but choosing life will create the oppurtunity for your life to improve and trust me if it does you will be great full you didn't kill yourself. Life can change drastically in moments you could meet a great girl who makes you feel good about yourself and changes your self image because let's be honest the main reason you feel this way is that you don't have a woman
In your life good luck

^btw your still young and being a Virgin isn't bad really your the perfect age to become a non virgin just saying...

I'm suicidal because my cock stopped working. I took antidepressants and BOOM, there goes my ability to feel a pleasurable orgasm. My dick even shriveled up.

What ever you do, don't go on those damn Antidepressants. They are cock killers! * desperately tries to jack *

Damn...I thought only I have those sudden urges of killing myself. It's not the actual urge to do it,it's just at the moment i feel so damn low right now. I'm 20 yrs to,my bday is coming up. Im living with my mother. Im ok with that if I had a job or went to college(which there are multiple personal reasons for that). It seems as everyone around me has a job or goes to college.

So i sit back and think about what will people think if I passed away. I lie to myself and say "I have nothing to live for". But at that moment of depression it does'nt seem like a lie.

For me I work out ALOT. I watch alot of movies or shows where the main character is strong,ambitous,persitent and shows perseverance. I listen to a wide range of music that throws a message to "live in the moment" or "push your self" amd "dont give up". I use these as my little batteries. They all power me up and remind me to not give up on life.

I take my workout serious. If I do not suceed in my workouts,i feel like shit. I actually feel like killing myself. I can't do anything right it seems. So i continously push myself and say if i can run for 35 minutes and do 1700 strikes with success,then I can pass this test,or get this job,or talk to this girl and so on.

My mother is proud of me,but I truly dont know what for. I want more,and trust me i will get it... It's just not in my arms range yet. Just keep pushing yourself through life. Life is a bitch, and that bitch will test you.

I'm glad you brought this up man. Thank you

well you're a good writer! Even from this short paragraph... write!!!!! Get good at that, start putting your imagination of suicide to other creative dimensions.

I believe that this is completely normal, as long as you don't act on it. I think in the past two years that I've been in college I began to have these thoughts because I was reliving my high school days and all the glory times and comparing it to the present. Nothing is easy anymore, nothing comes to me anymore. No one is willing to make a relationship if you're not the one starting it. No one wants to be your friend if you're not approaching them.

You need to find a hobby. Believe me on this, i know because I did. And its the most amazing feeling ever, to know that you are good at something. To hear people praise you. To have the triumphant moments erase all the negativity. To feel the confidence extending outside and beyond. To conjure up that feeling of feeling like you matter and the world stops and its all about you at your moments of weakness. This is what saves me. I am of course talking about sports. :]

Sports is what gives me my confidence and that feeling of living and scientifically it makes a lot of sense. You're having adrenaline rushing throughout your body, you feel electric, your testosterones is on full flare, every muscle is tense and everything is slow motion so you feel like you are in control and the world is not racing by you. Oh and don't turn to drugs big no no.

I do that alot too. I think when you have low self esteem you start to blend into the background and start to think "If I did it.. would anyone care".

Don't let the buggers grind you down, make the most of your days.