Is it normal to have suicidal thoughts

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Im having suicidal thoughts. It all started when the dean of our department recommend me to either transfer college or shift course, then after 1 sem she will allow me to return to my original course. My problem is that its hard for me to adjust and finding friends is so difficult. I'll be honest. I have OCD. My family is so disappointed of me. And I live with rules, it feels like prison. Now, my only choice to end this pain is to just die. No one even care.

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  • TheArBuilder
    9 years ago

    Don't! Go seek for help quick

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    • howlsilver
      9 years ago

      I dont want to. Doctors will probably say I was just craving for attention. Im not...

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk
    9 years ago

    pull yallself together

    do yall have any idea the kinda evil and terrible stuff whats goin on in the world and yalls gonna jump off a bridge over this shit?

    sounds like yall payin yalls dues and a workin towards a future. lifes short enough, suck it up, quit bein stupid and a feelin sorry for yallself

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    • Thatguy777
      9 years ago

      I would never actually do that yall I actually do enjoy life for some things, but sometimes things just seem crappy yall. I agreed with him yall because I think everybody thinks about it at least once. Usually it isn't anything serious, "ugh life is so difficult sometimes the easy way out sounds nice" but it is never serious yall. Yall know what I mean yall I'm not gonna do that crap yall.

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      • howlsilver
        9 years ago

        Sometimes cutting yourself is the only solution you have. It helas the pain inside

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  • Thatguy777
    9 years ago

    I graduated from high school last year and started at a community college where I'll be stuck at for another year and a half. Nobody wants to make friends there. I spend most of my time alone. All my friend from high school were completely fake, including the girl I fell in love with and literally devoted my entire senior year to, sacrificing so many opportunities that year. She cut me off like I never even mattered to her. Everyone treats me like shit because I look like I'm in junior high which I can't help. Because of this girls don't even look at me. I've never kissed anyone or had a relationship, I get made fun of everyday, the only real friend I made in the past year was at my work and he's moving to a different state. I have suicidal thoughts all the time. There isn't a day where I don't think about it. The only thing is I know I wouldn't ever go through with it. My mom lost her best friend to suicide and it destroyed her. If she lost her only son in the same manner, I KNOW she would blame herself, even though she's one of the only things keeping me from goin that far. Plus, I still have a little bit of hope that my life won't continue to be absolute shit forever. I just had shitty teenage years at a shitty privates school I never wanted to go to with shitty fake people who ignored you and claimed you an outcast piece of shit if you didn't play sports. I was never athletic so I guess I'm a loser because of that? Like really? Fuck the shitty ass world that claims you HAVE to be good at that shit in order to be cool. That's beyond fucked up. And this is a "Christian" school too. The strongest "Christian" there threw me around, bullied me, made me feel like a worthless piece of shit. All the girls there ignored me. I just wanted friends, but everyone saw me as worthless shit. The vice principal was psychologist so if anyone knew how I felt it was him, but he just made fun of me and made me feel worthless and ruined the potential between my first love by starting rumors for the school. Now I understand why so many people reject Christianity so easily. Most "Christians" are so fake that they push people away. Anyway, yeah I deal with suicidal thoughts all the time. I wish I could just find a girl that actually cares about me, but I'm lucky to even get friendzoned now. Yeah, life is shit. They say suicide is the most selfish thing you can do, but if you think about it, two people having sex to make a baby in this cruel fucked up world seems so much more selfish to me. That's why I'm not really against abortion anymore. They don't have to go through hell like we all do. Sometimes I wish I was the miscarriage instead of my two potential siblings. I feel you buddy. I really do.

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    • howlsilver
      9 years ago

      Sorry for a very late reply, thank you for your comment. I really appreciate it. I have friends, they are real but they are few. There are people who wants to become my friend and there are people who likes me too. But im a bit weird and it takes time for me to find a friend that I could trust. Im really a shy person and my college years is all fucked up. Im not friendly, so im the type of person that "wait for someone to approach me". But I could be your friend since you seem like a quiet person like me. :-)

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  • thr
    9 years ago

    Sometimes life is tough, especially with OCD. Have you told anyone about your problems with OCD?

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    • howlsilver
      9 years ago

      Yeah, one of my friends. Im always depressed, I cant help myself...

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      • thr
        9 years ago

        I was thinking more about telling your family, since you feel that they must be disappointed with you.

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