Is it normal to have sexual thoughts about someone you're not attracted to?
Let me start off by saying I am in a terrible dry spell. No sex in over a year. Feels like I could punch through a wall. Anyway.
My close friend is a dude, he's bisexual and very conventionally attractive. The guy has a lot of sex with a lot of people. He'll bang just about anything with a pulse, and I think he intends to. (I'm okay with being the doofy sidekick wingman friend.)
Not long ago, he and I were alone at his apartment, and he put his head in my lap/was being more touchy than usual which felt weird but I didn't acknowledge it. Then, someone recently told me in secret that he's attracted to me. Ever since then, I haven't been able to look at him the same way.
I've only ever been with girls. I've never been into dudes. But, the fact that there's a human being that actually wants to sleep with me after this awful sexless year is actually tempting. I would not mind having a friends with benefits situation, even if I'm not really attracted to him.
((inb4 everyone tells me I'm gay. I don't give a fuck. Sexuality is a spectrum. Some people just wanna bang the whole world, and some of us will take whatever we can get.))