Is it normal to have lots of conflicting thoughts n constantly feeling

I have a lot of conflicting thoughts.When i think about things i like ,i get a conflicting thought that i dont like it or something.And sometimes a so-called reality wave rush in,making me feel like shit.And i always doubt my thoughts and stuff.I used to be trapped by meantal blocks,just going with the flowing and putting up with a OCPD dad cuz he was rich.But sometimes my doubt run so deep they r telling me all those conflicting thoughts r true.When they first set in i would know they r nonsense but as it runs deeper and takes over me,my mind becmes confused and i just dont feel like myself anymore.