Is it normal to have extreme paranoia and depression after smoking weed?
Im 19, a guy, and in first year of college. I used to smoke daily in my junior and senior high school years. About mid way through my high school i started having extreme paranoia and depression while I was high, during which I would more or less obsess about everything that was even slightly wrong in my life. It got to a point where I decided to quit( about a year ago) and haven't smoked ever since. I love drinking, but the problem is, being in college all my friends smoke everyday to chill, and we dont drink unless we're going out clubbing. It gets very annoying for me to be the only one who isn't high. I am absolutely terrified of even trying to smoke again because the last few times I had it I had terrible experiences, like ones which seriously messed with my head. Weird thing is, nothing that traumatic has happened to me to. Just general everyday stuff freaks me out, like a rejection from a girl who I had a crush on for like a week and forget about the second week.
Any advice on how I can start smoking again, without the paranoia and depression?