Is it normal to have a fast feeling warning: long read/i promise i'm no troll
i started getting these feelings when i was young. i wanna say 2 to 4 years of age.Anyway i used to get these very often and now that i grew up they had started to subside, but just recently i've been getting them back. my most recent one was about 3 days ago, and i just want to know if anyone has ever had these? please bear in mind that i have never taken any hallucinogenic drugs before. The only drugs i take are maybe some aleve for my knee and some ibuprofen or excedrine for my migranes. Well, here it goes. This was what i felt, the last time i had the feeling.
It was late at night, and i was on the computer reading a blog or something. So i'm reading and reading and all of a sudden, i start reading faster. I keep reading and it only gets faster and faster. Pretty soon i'm reading so fast my brain can't process it. Its weird because I know what i"m reading, but at the same time, i don't. Its going too fast. And not only that but everything is going really fast. I hear everything amplified. The sound of my fish tank filter is moving so fast and is so loud that i can't hear my self think. Actually,NO, you see that's the thing. I can hear my self think, which is very weird and, when i was a kid, terrifying.(when i was small and would tell my parents i heard voices in my head.) Its like my senses are enhanced. I can hear my eyeballs moving, I can hear my organs working. Everything is moving so fast, and I try moving slower to compensate but its not working. Its just like the reading, I feel like i'm moving a million miles a minute but at the same time i know and can see that i'm not moving fast at all, and that's when it happens. I start moving slow. Not normal but slow. Everything is slowed down dramatically. And again i feel it but at the same time, I'm aware and can see that i'm moving normal.
i also had some really horrifying nightmares when i was small. please i know they sound stupid but i was legitimately scared of these:
i was in a blank room. actually i don't even know if it was a room, it was probably just space.anyway, i just remember seeing shapes. a lot of circles and maybe squares, they could have just been lines crossing. but they were just flying around me, and for what ever reason i was freaking terrified of these dreams. i would wake up crying and yelling from these.no the reason i'm including this is because i would get the same kind of feelings i these dreams. the shapes would move really fast and then really slow. and i just thought it might have some sort of connection
So anyway that's it. i'm sorry for the long read and if anyone is still reading at this point please leave a comment and tell me what you think. Again i have never done drugs, and telling the 100% truth. i'm just tired of people looking at me like i'm crazy when i tell them. my fucking doctor doesn't even believe me. he doesn't even pretend to care. again sorry for the long read...
i just don't want to be alone.