Is it normal to get the will to live from fictional characters?

All my life I have gone from one fictional character obsession/crush, Probably over 100 characters I have been attracted to at some point.

I am asexual, I know I am attractive only because so many people have told me, but I do not care about looks at all. I fall in love by personality, and there are so few IRL who's personality even comes close to fictional characters.

I'm not even into the "hot" ones, in fact the more silly and exaggerated the cuter they tend to be for me.

I tried to be in a real relationship recently and that failed miserably, so I went back to my old flame (comedic video game character) because I was so depressed.

One time when something really bad in my life happened, this character appeared to me in a sleep paralysis type experience, glowing as though a godly figure, and I felt at ease.

Lately I have been having trouble find the reason to get out of bed every morning, and since I have discovered a new "crush"(another also comedic video game character), I feel 100x better as they are the first thing I think of in the morning, I am full of life again.

IIN? Also I'm in my mid-20s.