Is it normal to feel this way about relationships?
I've never had a real boyfriend, but I really want one. Picturing myself in that type of relationship makes me uncomfortable though? Like thinking about someone else actually liking me that way, seems so weird and it makes me anxious. I think it might have to do with my low self esteem, but I'm not sure. I feel like I end up avoiding anyone that might like me... I just cannot picture myself in a relationship at all, but I really want one...