Is it normal to feel this way about my boyfriend?
Well, I've been with a guy for two years now. The problem is that I love him and sometimes I'm afraid that it's a bit too much.
For instance, I can't sleep without smelling his shirts or looking at pictures of him before bed. When he's around I'm constantly holding his hand or keeping an eye out for him. Then when he's not around, it's almost like I'm homesick. Nowhere is comfortable but with him. I tell him everything and don't feel comfortable doing that with anyone else. I get jealous easily, all of the time. Then his smell is like a drug. When he kisses me, it feels like I'm melting away. I think about him a gazillion times a day, I keep his things on a shelf in my closet, like a shrine sort of. I've watched this dude poop before and I was like, omg marry me.
Then there are weirder thoughts, the desire to just hold him forever and indulge in nothing but him. Sometimes I wish I could literally melt into him so that we become one. I almost want to eat him so that we could be together forever, to grind against him until our marrows mix and we're finally inseperable. I'm attracted to him and only him. And I know, that's hella weird, but I told him and strangely enough he feels the same and does most of the same things (if not more). I thought it was just a new relationship feeling but it's been two years and nothing has changed. Is this normal?