Is it normal to feel this way?

I'm a woman in my 30s and I don't think I have a future (or maybe just not where I'm at). I was charged with a crime two years ago and am currently on a pre-trial probation. Once that is over, the charges will be dismissed and expunged.
However, it seems that evrryone knows about it around where I live and I've faced a lot of social ostracism. People have actually ran away from me (assholes). Anyhow, the more it happens, the more I don't want to get close to anyone.
I just want to be loved by someone and not have this hanging over my head in this community that I love.
I just feel like giving up on everything.

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  • RoseIsabella

    All of this depends on a myriad of different factors, not the least of which would be what this crime is that you committed.

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  • jrbsportz

    Look here sometimes we make bad decisions. But we get up and keep moving, just because you are down you ain't out.dont worry about asshole people there everwhere.keep your head up you will find a partner that will love you for who you are not shit you hear just saying!!!

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  • Grunewald

    I don't know who you are or what you have or haven't done. But I feel for you. What you are going through sounds traumatic in the extreme.

    Nothing that's criminal by law is unforgivable by heaven, if you appeal to heaven. But the law doesn't scratch the surface of the ways one person can hurt another. These people sound like judgmental hypocrites who don't know their own condition. It stings when you realise what people are capable of, and how shallow they are. I'm so sorry.

    There is more to live for than any of us can know. Seek it out. If it helps, change town. I did that. I don't know yet whether it has helped, though.

    My very best to you. We haven't all had criminal charges brought against us, but I think we have all been worthy of it, either by the letter of the law, or in spirit.

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  • greekfish

    First of all I’m sorry you feel this way, that all sounds incredibly difficult to deal with. I want to assure you that you most certainly have a future whatever that may look like. I understand how it feels to want to be loved but at the same time struggling to get close to people. I’ve gotten in trouble with the law too, for minor things. I fear getting close to people because I’m afraid they will discover who I really am and then they will leave me. I want you to know that there are many empathetic people in this world who aren’t going to care about your past or the bad things you’ve done or are doing. They will take you as you are and they’ll love you and try to help you. I just don’t think you’ve found those certain people yet. But trust me, you will. The people who are running away from you, you wouldn’t want to hang around with those kinds of people anyway. I want you to keep living your life and do not give up because I guarantee you that somebody is out there for you. You are loved. I hope you find what you’re looking for.

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